Tuesday, 18 December 2012

Movie Review : CZ 12


Hi folks, I am back after months. I was so busy in the past few months due to the SPM exams and my job. So now I am here to blog again because I quitted my job and done with my SPM. The first post after months will be a movie review which is CZ 12!!! 

CZ 12, a movie filmed by Jackie Chan. I got the premiere ticket from my friend on 16 December @ Pavilion's GSC.

Well well well, guess who I see there as well? YES, NO DOUBT, I MET JACKIE CHAN IN REAL PERSON. He is super duper charming! His smiles are so bright, his skin is so firm, he is just so charming!! I melt to the max when I saw him. <3 actress="actress" adorable.="adorable." along="along" and="and" black="black" brought="brought" dress="dress" he="he" hot="hot" in="in" is="is" look="look" movie.="movie." nbsp="nbsp" one="one" p="p" shiny="shiny" so="so" the="the" two="two" yellow="yellow">






This movie is really really highly recommended by me! It's awesome and interesting, it worth you to spend about 2 hours more to watch it. As Jackie said you are not supposed to leave your seat once the movie is start. :p

Watch the trailer now! 

Tuesday, 14 August 2012

After all.

It is almost two months I dumped my blog and I feel really sorry. I'd been busy and lazy for all the time. A little bit crazy over my schedule and I couldn't leave the book alone because the trail is in the corner. I am a little bit nervous bout that, to be honest I am more nervous about the FINALS. Like seriously the finals of my high school. It makes me feel terrible. I promise you that I will blog often after November is over, I will share you something interesting in December, I promise. December is my favourite month because I am gonna be freee! :)) 

Readers, I am really sorry for not updating that much but you can know my news from my Instagram ( @mickeyhoh ) , Twitter or Facebook. I will be right back okay, please come back in December! :) xoxo

Wednesday, 20 June 2012

WWF (World Wide Fund)






When I was young I used to own different kinds of pets, I considered myself as a animals or pets lovers . I love small animals! Because those big animals are too hard to handle for me. Small animals as fishes, turtle, and etc. Recently, I found a news on web which I am quite interested with it.

I guess most of you guys know what is WWF (World Wide Fund). Today I am going to blog all about WWF. As we know, there are some animals are threatened with extinction. Tigers, turtles, panda, orang-utan are only some in the long list. WWF is an organisation which work covers the broader issues of the natural environment, incorporating such aspects as policy work, environmental education, public awareness and campaigns. WWF PROTECTING THE ANIMALS WHICH THREATENED WITH EXTINCTION.

Imagine what kind of world we leave for our children, and our children’s children. I wonder if the next generations know what is tiger, turtle or panda if the animals ever extinct. Or they only can see them from the pictures and never have a chance to see it in real. Just like I will never get to see Michael Jackson or Steve Jobs anymore, I can only see them in pictures. We really have to help WWF for saving the animals! How can you help? Lemme tell you now.

Adoption (Month/One time)
Yes, it's true. You can symbolic adoption the animals from WWF. Monthly adoption by WWF doesn't cost you heavily, it just needs your RM30 & above monthly. WWF is being so caring, because you can choose for the donate amount (RM30/RM38/RM48/RM58). Besides, you can choose your favourite animals to do the adoption! They have Tigers, Pandas, Turtles and also Orang-utan. If you adopt an animal, you will get some free gift from WWF. So pick your favourite animals to adopt today! For more infomations, please visit You don't have to be a superhero to save the world or Click Here For More Information About Adopting




Donate
Every bit helps! Donating is always a good way to help the people who ever need helps! If we all work together, there are still many animals and areas rich with natural resources that we can protect. Your contribution , so please donate today, before we lose our rich natural heritage. Donate to day! Click Here For More Information About Donation


Volunteer
If you feel that only donating isn't enough for you, you can also be a volunteer to help WWF for more! Do the works to save the animals and you can get to know them better. By being a volunteer, you can know more about what's going on to our environments, how to decrease the extinction problems, how to save the world and etc. Click Here For More Information About Volunteer

Spread the Green Message
If you're a blogger like me, you can spread this message to your blog readers so they could know more about this, and hopefully they would do something to save the world together. If you're not a blogger of course you can spread this message too by telling people around you, send a free E-Cards to your friends & family, and etc. I found some creative and meaningful E-Cards from the website and I gonna share a few on  my blog now. Click Here For More E-Cards and Posters



You can also help WWF daily by doing these things in your life. Change your lifestyle and make a better world together. Easy and good, why not?


  • Turn off equipment like televisions, computers and stereos when you're not using them. That little red standby light means they're still using power - and that means a contribution to global warming.
  • Save water: turn off the tap when brushing your teeth.
  • Recycle your paper, glass, plastics and other waste.
  • Send e-greetings instead of paper cards. Check out the range of free WWF e-cards available.
  • Help reduce the world's rubbish dumps - don't use "throw-away" products like paper plates and napkins, and plastic knives, forks, and cups. Avoid using Styrofoam cups, plates and boxes – take away your food by bringing your own plastic container to food stalls and restaurants.
  • Take your own bags to the shops to carry home your groceries and shopping.
  • Look for products with less packaging.
  • Buy the most energy-efficient household appliances you can afford.
  • Use recycled paper.
Click Here For More Information About Live, Life, Love.


So what are you waiting for now? Let's join WWF for saving the world. Be the hero who save the world today!




Sunday, 10 June 2012

你好



距离上一篇的情感文章已有一个月的时间,今天,终于下定决心要写一篇。上个月,我拼了老命的在K书,为的还不过就是那年中考。整个人就是疲劳轰炸,没有太多的时间相别的东西,满脑子就只是关于年中考的东西。每天每天,都在别人睡觉的时候起床,别人吃饭的时候睡觉。跟朋友的交际也开始少了,就算是同班同学也一样。

其实今晚我不知道我要写些什么,只是想利用假期的最后一个晚上来写一写感性的文章。每一个人在成长的过程中所遇到的问题都不同,所以思想也会不一样。今晚我上了YouTube看一些我常关注的人的影片,有几个影片真的很感动很感动。影片里有好几点真的触动到我心头,你知道的...太多分离的戏份。生离死别。我很容易感动,很容易落泪,但还好,我很理性。在这两个假期里,说真的快乐的没有几天。比起常常呆在学校和那几个懂我的朋友呆在一起真的差很多。

有的时候,一些人就是喜欢这样,不负责任的说话。就觉得我们不在乎他们说的话,然后在他们了解我们之前说出一些伤人的话。我不是那种在乎每个人想法的人,但是我还是由我会在乎的人,比如说家人和知己。我不明白为什么有的人就是那么爱在他们了解一件事之前下定论。可能这是潮流,那就算我跟不上潮流好了。有的人,在他们了解你之前,他们就已经把你设定为“坏人”,之后无论如何,你在他们的眼里还是个“坏人”。这是个不能改变的事实。

我很喜欢找男生作伴,不是因为我骚,而是因为男生可以让我觉得他们很值得信赖。跟男生当朋友很简单,你不需要猜疑,因为男生对朋友比较诚实。我身边的几个男生都是我倾诉的对象,每次我不开心的时候,我都会找他们。他们不会去煽风点火,他们只会听,听了就算,也没有说会大嘴巴的传出去。有一个比较有义气,常常陪我聊天聊到三更半夜才睡,有事没事就会问我过得怎么样,我的今天好不好。这样的朋友哪里找?你回你的世界找,不要来我的世界把我的朋友给带走。哈哈

前几天,有位仁兄问了我一个很“复杂”的问题。他问我说,是我“不要”男朋友还是“没有”男朋友。其实我有认真想过这个问题,可是我还是觉得跟男生做朋友比较自在。我什么都可以说,什么都可以做,可以打,可以骂,可以捏,可以锤。反而跟男朋友还得“淑女”一点,靠妖!好比如我的前任,现在我是他的听众,有什么事他都会告诉我,当然我不会那么缺德的在这里公开他的秘密。谁说分手了不能当朋友?其实可以,就好像我和我的前任。现在我在他面前就是一个buddy,还很男性化的那一种。在我们连个的对话里,十之八九都是粗话,都是一些比较男性化的对谈,我觉得这样很自在,真的。坦白地告诉你,我不是那种很乖的女生。我在之前的文章清楚的说过我是怎样的人,我无法改变自己,很抱歉,你不喜欢就滚。越远越好。反正我快乐才是最重要。有分离,才会有相逢,不对吗?至少我是这样告诉自己的。离开的人,就离开了,接下来遇见的人才是总要。是你的就是你的,不是你怎么样也逼不来。

我脑袋里有很多东西,但是我不知道我应该些什么,可以写什么。让我想想...  ......

在这无所事事的半个月,我有好几个晚上都在自己掉泪。在周公来赴约之前,我躺在床上开着天花板,想起好多的以前和曾经。以前的时光,以前的快乐,以前的笑容,以前的幸福,以前的家人......14天前,正是爸爸的生祭。作为女儿,我没有办法去探望,因为没有驾照,但我保证明年我会赴约。我没有什么可以给爸爸,所以我写了一封信,至于信的内容就不方便透漏了。只能说,我很想念他,可是我一想到他我就会想起他时候痛的样子。我不喜欢。我今天一直都在找一样东西,我在找我拥有唯一一张全家福。我还在努力着,希望我没把它弄丢,不然我真的要把自己给杀了。

突然觉得够了,不应该再继续写。今天的文章你就把它当做是散文吧。我只是拥有太多的感受和情绪,需要释放一些。我记得,你要我笑......




Friday, 1 June 2012

30th May Two-O-twelve


Hello hello hello! It's holiday and like a very finally I have time to hang out with friend and go to shopping. It has been like months I didn't blog about my outing post with my friends because of the photos problem. DSLR cameras are always heavy, this is the reason why I don't like to bring my camera go out with my ladies nowadays. My camera is just too....HEAVY!!! :(

So I planned to get a semi-pro camera which is Canon G12. Here, I wish again there's someone can buy for me. Never mind, I will try to get it myself as soon as possible(I think next year -.-) Back to the topic, I went out with a new lady who name Kai Bin. This is the first meet for us, we never meet each other before so I guess this will be a good chance to do so.

We went to KLCC by LRT, and both of us are actually starving because we've planned to have our breakfast at Charlie Brown Cafe @ KLCC. So we did it, as we planned. I ordered hot chocolate with Snoopy template and Kai Bin ordered  Cappucino with Charlie Brow template.

Photo from ( Kai Bin's Blog )

Photo from ( Kai Bin's Blog )

Photo from ( Kai Bin's Blog )

 Charlie Brown from a baby to a now I guess? :D

The order counter.

Some decorations in the shop. #1

Some decorations in the shop. #2

Here's our drinks, Charlie Brown Hot Cappuccino and Snoopy Hot Chocolate.

 This is the photo I posted on Instagram. Follow me @mickeyhoh

 This is the first one Instax photo I got in my life! Thank you so much to Kai Bin!! Love it much even though I look quite ugly. -.- ( From my Instagram : @mickeyhoh )

 Sandwich #1
 Sandwich #2
Please wait, you'll be served shortly. 

Here is me and my lady, Kai Bin Ching.

Yayy! Me and the snoopy hot chocolate. I started miss it already. (¯﹃¯)



After breakfast, we were walking around in the mall just for a while and we head to Pavilion (because KLCC was too crowded.) In Pavilion, we walked in the Pavilion for few hours and then I am almost....BANKRUPT. There's too many sales in this summer, and I got a lot of new things too! For this....I got no photo in Pavilion because I was too addicted on shopping and forgot to capture. I'm sorry. :/ But I got some from Kai Bin's blog. Here you go :


Kai Bin never been to Tokyo Street @ Pavilion so I bring her a tour over there because I been there for few times and always eat always there. She introduce me for something that call Mochii I guess, and then I introduce her Simino and treat her for her very first try as well. 


It is call Mochii Sweet or something else? 

Simino! Yummyyyyyy (¯﹃¯)



Besides, there's a store call KUMO by a malaysian famous model Lengyein. 


She upload a photo to insta and tagged me and Lengyein, also posted to Twitter. 
Photo from ( Kai Bin's Blog )

Guess what? Lengyein retweet her tweet. 
Photo from ( Kai Bin's Blog )

After shopping @ Pavilion, we head for high tea. If I'm not wrong the place call "Tea Salon Season" @ Starhill Gallery. Before that, I went to Sephora just right beside or in front of Starhill. As I said a lot times on Twitter @MickeyHoh I was looking for new perfume, so I went there to find out the one I wanted. But....too bad, I have no luck because they don't have Hermes perfume over there. :( I still missing the perfume I saw in BKK airport. :( 

Here are the photos of tea season : 

Don't cha love macaroons? (¯﹃¯)

I ordered the Caramel (Brown) and Lavender(Purple) flavor, and Kai Bin ordered Vanilla(White) and Rose & Lychee(Red) flavor.

For drinks, we ordered London High Tea. Taste great. ( Insta photo : @mickeyhoh )

A random photo while enjoying the tea season. ( From my Instagram : @mickeyhoh )

Oh yea, forgot one thing. We're quite lucky because the very first moment we're there, there have no music at all and so we're seated (had a walk before high tea) at a kinda good view place and there was a piano behind us and nobody was playing. But after ordered our tea and food, there was a guy playing the piano already. So guess how enjoy it is, piano music right behind us with the London High Tea and also the Macaroons. The pianist played well musics, he made us enjoy more during the tea season! I was planned to take a photo with him but it was just too awkward and embarrassing to do so, plan failed. ( ⊙ _ ⊙ )

Kai Bin took this while I'm drinking the tea, I have no idea what face is this.

The lady! 

So this is all I got that day, spent all my saving i guess? 

The pastel nail colors. Pastel pink, nude, tiffany green, pastel purple and the base.

I got this cup from Kai Bin! How cute! She bought it from Mid Valley's Mickey Mouse Fair. Have you guys been there? Oh well, I never been there because I will be mad if I go there. -.-

I think that's all for the day! See you soon, stay tuned! xx


Thursday, 31 May 2012

Pedigree.

Remember the tiny puppy? I told you guys that Bobby Boy (no more cooper because family don't like it)  don't want to take any foods and drinks and he is so afraid of people. So one day when I was viewing my own blog, I saw the Nuffnang's ads which is on my blog was showing about Pedigree dog foods.

I clicked into their website and then read everything bout Pedigree dog foods. I found it was quite good for the pets, so the next day I went to the super market and try to get some Pedigree dog foods. Guess what I got? Yes, Pedigree puppies' foods for the new born puppies! I feed Bobby Boy with Pedigree and  he likes it, a lot! Now, everytime when I approaching him, he will come closer to me because he thought I have some foods for him. Yet, Bobby Boy learned my command which is "Sit!". When he wants his food from me I will ask him to sit if he wants his food, of course he do everytime when I ask him to.

How to train a dog? This is how I train Bobby Boy :
  When you command your pet(s) to do something and your pet(s) don't bother you, don't give up, keep going. As you want your pet to come to you, you need to have some treats in your hand first and then you call its name. Remember one thing, pet don't understand long sentence but short. "Come!" is actually enough, but if you want it to know what's its name, add its name at the first before you give it a command. "Bobby come!" Then it will come to you, after he came to you, you have to give him the treat on your hand as a reward. To tell it this is the right thing to do. Practice this everyday once and then he will remember and do what you command to it next time.

ps : Do not force or hit it, it's a dog, not human. It's right if it cannot understand what you said! 

There are a lot of pets food by Pedigree, I recommended you guys to give it a try if your pet(s) never try before! I bet they will love it very much and as their owner you will like it too! Give it a try now!



Monday, 28 May 2012

Want food?

Sit if you want your food! Like finally I already successfully to train Poppy Boy to listen to me. Now every time he sees me he is sitting because he thought I have foods for him! The dog foods rock! ;D


Daily short update, stay tune for more. xx

Wednesday, 23 May 2012

Why I love to gather with guys.


I wanted to post about this problem since long time ago but sometimes I have no ideas what to write or say and you know my mind was like...totally blank. So today I'm gonna talk about why the humans nowadays always gossip and saying about people like me are "coquettish".

I have no idea why can they being this old-minded. I am being close to heterosexual's friends is wrong? So all of us are not supposed to have heterosexual friends at all? Girls must sticking with girls and boys must be with boys? Oh hell, be a little bit open-minded please? If you ever ask me why don't I just go to be close to my girls friends and then stop being close with the guys' gang I will definitely give you a big slap or shit in your face. Why are you bothering about my friendships and yet you can't manage yourself a good friendship? But I will still giving you the reasons why I am closer to guys more then girls.


Got it? So just please stop bitching around about us. I care guy friends more than girl friends because I love peaceful's life, too many gossips or backstaps are seriously make me feel annoying and so tired of it. How great the life will be without these things and all we do are just enjoying the peaceful life. Such a wonderful land man!!

Just a quite short post to tease you guys because holidays are coming and I gonna have a lot of posts I guess? STAY TUNED!!  xx




Oh yeah one more thing, can you please click the Nuffnang Ads once you saw them? Thank you readers! 





Saturday, 12 May 2012

Owning a pet.



Right before this, I remember I was always asking my parents to get me a puppy or a pet. I used to ask them like daily and they were really really felt annoyed with that, but I was just doing the same thing until Idk when then I stop. One of my guy friend who is recently kinda close with me is a pet lover, he owned a lot of pets. He is the kind of people who really get crazy on owning a pet and then I got a little bit infected by him. *I know right, his love is too strong and I got infected*

Remember what were my last pet? I did post on my blog, but quite unfortunately one of them was died due to sick. So I left one only and it's too lonely to be a single one so I gave it to my brother and now it got another 2friends. I think it's better than being alone in the big tank. Everyone hates to be alone ain't it?

Alright, go true the topic. So if you're one of my follower on Instagram I bet you know my dream was came true and now I really got a puppy (count as family pet too). It was a sad story about getting this puppy, lemme tell you the story. Few days ago, it was found around my house area and it was still a baby. It seriously got a pair ignorance's eyes and you know pet looks quite pity with a dirty body and tiny body shape. Besides, it was trembling when we were all looking at it, I SERIOUSLY WANT TO KNOW WHAT THOSE IDIOTS DID TO IT! You know it's so afraid of HUMAN and it don't even move a single step when there are HUMAN around it. SEE? Humans nowadays being so cruel and irresponsibility to pets!
He looks so pity, isn't it? :(( 

We decided to adopt him (it's a male puppy so allow me to called it as "him") home and try to cure his skin problem. He is just a few months baby I guess, and now he already having the skin problem and being sooooooo freaking TINY. A pet or animal shouldn't be treated alike this, THEY ALL ARE LIVING THINGS. All I can do is just give him a safety place to live and be a food and needs supplier to him. Here is the problem, because he was kinda afraid of human so he seems like refuse to eat a single thing or drink water. I think I seriously have to spend my time on him tomorrow morning. I gonna bring him to the grassland in front of my house and let it play or stay over there since tomorrow morning everyone is out for work and no one's car gonna be there. SAFE AND FUN.

Readers, people, women, men or whoever you are. If you want a pet, please don't get it by paying, adopt a pet is more meaningful than buying a pet. If you ever adopt a pet, you save a life. REMEMBER THIS, you can save other's life with your love and care. Before getting a pet, please make a deep considerations. If you're getting it for fun and you're the kind like 3 minutes hot temp people do not get a pet. Once you're their owner, then you have to be responsibility, be careful, and spend time on them. Pets are not only a living things and also a friends of human.

ADOPT A PET IS REALLY MEANINGFUL. Adopt a animal, you saved a life. 


For more information about adopting a pet, you can visit these sites :







Monday, 30 April 2012

深夜,情感。 (結束四月)

只能放舊照,最近都很懶拍照。 :x


12:14 am.
此時此刻,我靠著墻坐在床上,把手提電腦放在腿上。把網路上的音樂盒給打開,播放著我近期來愛聽的歌曲,床邊置放著一杯牛奶,在臉書上遊蕩。獨自在房裡,像平常一樣,燈火熄了,那唯一的暗淡光線來至於電腦和窗外。抬起頭就是我房里的第一扇窗,我試著尋找月亮的行蹤,但它今天好像又罷工了。對著窗外發呆了一陣子,又把我的目光移到了螢幕。我儘量然自己放鬆,忙了那麼多天,終於完成了我的...工作。從上禮拜五開始,我沒讓自己放鬆過。除了睡覺和洗澡,我其餘的時間大部份都在面對電腦。除了趕進度我還是在趕進度,趕了那麼久我終於完完全全的可以把該做的東西都做完了。可能是習慣了遲睡,我現在還蠻精神。所以......腦子又不聽話了。


有時候我很希望我身上有一個開關,所以我可以控制自己的睡眠。人的腦袋很奇怪,是不是就會出現一些曾經的片段,突然有一張熟悉的臉孔出現,回憶突然湧出來。打從一開始我讓自己忙,慢的不可開交,忙得沒有時間亂想。可惡的四月真的發生了很多事情。家人,朋友,課業,所謂的“感情”,還有自己都成爲了我的一種隱形壓力。有的時候真的會想很多,想很多的時候都會讓我心情變得超級低落。很多事情,不是我們從表面就能看得出來真正的事物,表面那一層可能只是一個假象罷了。一句動聽的話,不一定真實;一句誓言,不一定會到老。有時候就連我們所看見的都可能不是真的,何況是聽回來的話?





12:55 am.
家人—— ​​什麼是家人? “我曾給過你閉上眼睛捂起耳朵的信任,就算全世界都說你有錯,只要你否認,我就相信。” 這就是家人。家人對你有無限的關心無限的信任還有無限的愛。這世界上什麽人都可能因為一些事情而背叛你,唯有家人不會。我身邊有很多朋友和自己的父親感情不是很好,雖然我知道因為什麼事,但是我還是希望他們可以試著去了解。我不知道為什麼我會這樣做,可能是因為......我試過那種失去父親的感覺吧。我不希望我身邊的朋友會有任何的遺憾,和我一樣的遺憾。世上是沒有什麽問題不能解決的,換個角度,換個方式,也許所謂的問題根本不是什麽問題。



家人可能沒有比朋友來的會說話,他們可能沒有比朋友來的時髦,但是仔細看看,他們所說的一切,有他們的道理。忠言逆耳,人類往往只接受一些自己想要接受的事實,即使事實就擺在他們的眼前。好聽的話,人人都愛聽;可惜真實的話不一定會好聽。遇到不快樂的事時,我會選擇逃避,但仔細想一想。逃避不一定躲的過,面對不一定最難過,孤單不一定不快樂,得到不一定能長久,失去不一定不再擁有。與其為某個理由而傷心難過,倒不如找個理由讓自己快樂。我快樂,家人看了也不會擔心。逃避是我的慣例。我怕的不是問題,而是獨自一人面對問題。從我們一出生開始,我們是哭著的,而媽媽即使再痛,她也會是笑著的,只因為她看見我們的生存。女人的這一生要受的傷總比男生多,吃得苦總比男生的苦來的苦。但這一切的苦,要是能造就一條新生命的話,就真的很值得。多數人給家人的關心比朋友的來的少,包括我也一樣。即使我知道只有家人會陪我到最後,不離不棄。也許是我不成熟,我希望我哪一天真的變成熟了,那我的生活就真的會改變。待人處事也會婉轉一點,至少不會那麼直,那麼傷人;我更希望我可以快點長大,因此我可以照顧家人;我希望能懂事一點,那他們就不會那麼擔憂。還有,我希望......家人快樂


我的作品之一。


人生,沒有了家人的話就不算完整。




1:49am

朋友——朋友,原以為是拿來信任的,但事情並非如此。世界變了,很多很多的事情和道理也會因此而改變。人的心態很奇怪,擁有的東西不懂得如何珍惜,得不到的卻拼了條命也得搶回來。太容易相信一個人只能怪自己笨,原諒別人也只因為自己心太軟。雖然我記性差,但我很記仇,要我忘記曾經傷害過我的事真的有點難。我很記仇沒錯,但我不會討厭一個人太久。對我而言,討厭一個人一輩子是不可能的事,我的討厭也可能是暫時性的不喜歡,或不順眼。朋友,往往都是我的死穴。在我生命中排第二的友情真的是碰不得。朋友的要求,我儘量配合;朋友的苦,我儘量分擔;朋友傷心,我借你肩膀和耳朵;朋友快樂,我也會爽。朋友,就是拿來真心對待的;可是太多的真心会换来伤害。現在的人還有幾個會和你說真心?真心是什麽?真心值錢嗎?付出的人往往都會期待回報,他們希望別人也會對他們做同樣的事情,可是這樣也顯得了他們有多麼愚蠢人类都是自私的,这世界上,没有人不自私。每個人都不會願意去做一些吃虧的事,付出沒有回報,那付出來幹嘛?我不期待我的朋友為我付出什麼,但我還是希望他們會在我需要的時候出現,就像我一樣。我最後一次聽朋友訴苦還蠻近期,不知道是不是深夜在作怪,那一個夜晚有兩個朋友都找我訴苦。我喜歡當聽眾,我喜歡聽多過於說,雖然我沒有能幫得上什麼忙,但至少我可以讓他們發洩。我不喜歡表達一些不開心的事,尤其是心事。每當我有心事的時候,我會去想我應該跟誰說,可每當我想到那個聽眾的時候,我的心就已經沒事,那我也會省事。既然過去了,就讓它過去,留它下來也沒有任何意義。比起愛情,友情很脆弱,一碰就碎了,就很難還原。


朋友和朋友之間,最重要的,還是信任。




2 : 24 am. 
課業——天秤座的人多數可能會和我一樣,懶散。要做的事力不從心懶散是我最大的問題,語言障礙是我第二大的問題。我真的不喜歡馬來文,我并不是種族歧視,我只是純粹的不喜歡。我我的馬來文從小學就開始爛,直到中學都一樣。拿來比較的話,我的馬來文程度就只能跟小學二、三年級生比。語言障礙成了我學習生涯上的絆腳石,那麼多年來都一樣。要是我身處的國家是以英文為主的話那有多好。以下都不是我的偏見,是真正發生在我生活中的事實。現在的國中老師比起以前小學老師真的沒有的比,國中的老師很不懂得尊重。她可以不停的念你,不聽的詛咒你說你的前途和你的成績一定會很爛。用馬來文來教科學本來就是錯的,課本上的文字,術語,考卷都是英文,她想怎麼樣?當你告訴她問題時,她會叫你回家自己找,不然問朋友。試問,老師啊,要是每個同學都會的話,我看你都快失業了吧。我們明白的話就不會問你,問你還要被你罵。


以下我特地用了不同顏色的字體來代替不一樣的老師,來看看相差多遠。
華小老師常常呼籲我們要不恥下問的學習;國中老師常常在我們不恥下問的學習的時候,就當我們不是人一般的羞辱,還說替我們感到羞恥;華小老師很盡責的把你不會的字或你的問題解釋的清清楚楚;國中老師很盡責的把你不會的字或你的問題丟回給你,還會反問你到底幾歲人了;華小老師懂得什麼叫尊重,她希望你尊重老師的同時她也會尊重你,即使你只是她的學生;國中老師懂得什麼尊重,她希望你尊重老師,但她不會尊重你,偶爾會用一些鄙視你的眼神看你,會說你有報應(即使你只是在課堂上小聲講話)。親愛的老師們,我沒有想要挑釁或是污蔑的成份,我所說的事情都曾經在我這11年(2001 - Now)的學習生涯中發生過,這是事實。老師們經常灌輸我們一種觀念就是 “態度,就是學習的關鍵” 可是爲什麽現在的老師態度也那麼的....“不客氣”學生也是人,我們都有人權不是嗎?沒有理由以為你們的職位是老師所以可以這樣羞辱下一代吧。老師,是一個很神聖的職位沒錯,但至今,這個職位的權利和權威已經被扭曲了。我真的希望有哪一些政府部門可以來正視這個問題。


老師,請給我們應有的尊重。
Teachers, kindly have the proper respect to us.


3 : 12am
每個人在感情路上都曾經受傷。這種傷,沒有具體的藥物,唯一的藥物就是時間。日子久了,傷口會癒合,剩下的可能就是疤痕,也就是我們所說的回憶。這種疤痕不會明顯,但你會偶爾發現它的存在。每當你發現它的存在是,你會想起你另你受傷的人、事、物。也許你不是想念,只是偶爾想起,但這種想起,足以讓人沒心情一整個夜晚。突然間,會很想很想一個人,卻發現,自己僅僅剩下思念的權利。就和我現在一樣,我不知道我到底是在爲了誰難過,為了什麼而傷心。這樣的夜晚還蠻讓我心酸,一個人,可以幹嘛?在無數個睡不著的晚上,我相信會有很多人,習慣性的開始閉上眼睛,安靜的想念一個人,想念一張臉。而在他們心裡,能夠有這樣一個人可以想念,或許就夠了。有很多次當我閉上眼睛的時候,出現的那張臉就是我常常思念的那一張臉。我明明清楚知道不可能,但卻愛上了;我明明知道需要放手卻放不下,因為我還在等待不可能的發生,這種感覺真的很難受。如果說,彼此相愛就是幸福;那麼這幸福如此簡單,如此難。緣分這東西很奇妙,我們喜歡的,要么錯過了,要么已經有主了;喜歡我們的,總覺得缺少一種感覺。於是我們抱著追求真感情的態度,尋找愛情,可是總覺得交際面太窄,沒有辦法認識理想的類型;於是我們抱著寧缺毋濫的態度,自由著,孤單著。也許這是好事,因為我可以努力地生活,努力的為自己,爲家人,雖然有時候會有點寂寞,會覺得孤單。我們從來沒有自己所以為的那麼愛一個人,我們去追尋愛,只是去尋找一個在某個地方的部份自己,我們因為愛人和被愛而了解自己,那些被我們愛過的人只是孕育我們的人生。


已結束的愛情是我們人生故事里的插曲,曾經愛多的人是我們人生的過客,那張熟悉的臉是我們人生故事里的插畫。事情,過去了,就一定會過去,唯一會過不去的,是心情。心情可以影響一個人很多,有的負面,有的正面。我這人比較負面,通常負面的心情比較多,負面的影響也比較多。我不常在朋友面前哭,就算哭也只是流下眼淚,可惜那不代表我每天都那麼快樂。我不快樂,但我沒有必要告訴別人或是去影響別人的心情。我的不快樂,我自己可以解決。我忍著不哭,不代表我堅強;我只是不想被別人看見我的軟弱。我傷心難過的眼淚我懂就够了,不需要太多人懂。也許我還是需要別人的肩膀,但是我要的就只是肩膀。如果你知道我在哭,拜託你不要說話,就這樣靜靜的坐在我身邊,這樣我就會好起來。哭泣僅是一種宣洩,眼淚有時也能洗去懦弱,洗掉不好的回憶(即使只是暫時性)。


愛情就像玫瑰一樣唯美,但一不小心你就會被刺傷。投入太多的感情,受的傷也會特別的重。每一段結束的戀情是新一段戀情的預告。每當戀情結束時,我不會當場覺得難過。數天后,才會開始覺得不習慣,覺得寂寞,就像是身邊少了一個人的出現。那種感覺真的很奇怪。夜深人靜,思念更是強烈,心情更是低落。一個人,看著天花發呆,自然而然的回回想到關於這一切的回憶。夜晚閃燦的燈火讓人覺得特別空虛寂寞。心情無緣無故的低落,對自己的孤單,感到有些莫名的哀傷。我怀念过去,是因为过去的时光里,包容了很多我已失去的東西,有些一旦遗失,就再也无从寻找,过去是回不去了世上沒有不傷人心的感情,或多或少,或大或小,它都會在你的靈魂上留下傷痕的,以傷痕為代價換得感情的喜悅,以感情的喜悅作為回報的傷痕。這世界上,沒有能回去的感情。就算真的回去了,你也會發現,一切已經面目全非。唯一能回去的,只是存於心底的記憶。是的,回不去了,所以,我們只能一直往前。

有一種愛是可以埋藏在心裡的。那種愛,只有付出,沒有回報。這種愛,不能被知道,不能被揭穿。擁有這種愛的人,他們不會希望有任何人會發現他們擁有的這種愛。他們很享受這種感覺,雖然他們的對象不屬於他們,但至少他們現在是朋友。哪怕如果這種愛曝光了,就連僅僅的朋友關係也沒有了,就連大條道理的關心也不可以了。寧可不擁有,也不想失去。這種暗地裡的愛,最長可以維持多久?而最久,是因爲什麽?因為堅持,因為愛。得不到的愛情最唯美。不會傷心難過,不會吵架鬥嘴,就算只是偶爾的聊天,但只要在他的腦海裡出現過這樣就够了。


愛情,是兩人努力維持的一段關係。如果一個人不再堅持維持下去的話,另一個人鐵定會受傷。




4:19 am.
善變,是女人的特權。女人心海底針,有多少人真的可以清清楚楚瞭解一個女生?誰可以掌握她的思緒?就連女生自己都不瞭解自己了,何況是別人。要有自己的堅持和原則,這是我給自己的設定。堅持,不管怎麼樣,都得堅持自己想要的。如果堅持一件事情,就得堅持到底。不說,就堅持不說,即使別人誤會你;不做,就堅持不做,即使別人說你沒種。這不是名譽和膽量的問題,這是原則的問題。堅持自己要的東西從來都不是一個做的事情,有些是就是需要堅持才能換來結果。不堅持,錯過了,能怪誰?


人家說我堅強,我嘴角上揚的帶過。其實他們不懂我,晚上躺在床上閉上眼睛,眼角總會有淚,心情開始低落,眼淚滴在枕頭上,一直難過著,直到不知不覺睡著。其實,在別人眼中堅強的人,正是在夜裡哭著哭著...睡著的人。他們看見的只是表面,並不是內在。表面是什麽?是一層層的保護層吧,我猜。雨水落下來,是因為天空無法承受它的重量,眼淚掉下來,是因為心再也無法承受那樣的傷痛和疲累。每個人都會累,沒人能為你承擔所有傷悲,人總有一段時間要學會自己長大。我們都不是很完美的人,但我們要接受不完美的自己。在孤獨的時候,給自己安慰;在寂寞的時候,給自己溫暖學會獨立,告別依賴,對軟弱的自己說再見。生活不是只有溫暖,人生的路不會永遠平坦,但只要你對自己有信心,知道自己的價值,懂的珍惜自己,世界的一切不完美,你都可以坦然面對。我們這一生,注定要走一些今生認為不該走的路,愛一些不該愛的人,做一些不該做的事,但是最終的結局,卻仍是那樣的。雖然徒勞無功,但我們依然可以在過程中學到一些有用的東西。享受過程比較重要。做人,不能一昧的鑽牛角尖,這條路不通的話,一定會有另外一條路。就像他們說的 “就算老天把所有們都鎖上了,祂還是會給你開一扇窗。” 學會變通,生活難題會變得容易一些;換個角度看事情,也许不是你想象的那么糟糕。


我們總是讓在乎我們的人為我們哭泣,并總是為哪些永遠不在乎我們的人哭泣,且我們在意那些永遠不會為我們哭泣的人,這是存在於生命中的事實,奇怪但卻真實,一旦以瞭解了,改變永遠不會太遲。因為在乎一些不在乎你的人而失去那些在乎你的人,很不值得。既然他們不在乎,死纏爛打也沒用。大不如瀟灑一點放開。雖然不能擁有,但至少我們認識了,無論結果如何,若是美好的,叫做精彩;若是糟糕的,叫做經歷。告訴自己不必遺憾,至少,精彩過,經歷過。人生,就是這樣奧妙。如果人生是一本書,那麼你就會是寫這本書的人。你要多精彩可以多精彩,多幸福可以多幸福。我,是這樣告訴自己的。雖然我還是會在夜裡難過,但至少大部份的時間我還是快樂的。雖然當黑夜來臨的時候,我只能孤獨的思念某一個人... 流淚,也可以是一種解壓的方式。淚流過了,够了,就重新來過。我們改變不了過去,就掌握現在,改變明天。再忙,都不要忘了放鬆自己。靜靜聆聽內心世界的聲音,聽聽自己的心是怎麼想的。偶爾的放縱是好的,最重要的是自己快樂。沒有必要為任何人而停留,因為我們等待的只是時間,一個時機,可以讓自己改變。這一生人最大的成就不是得什麽大獎,不是成為名人,而是讓自己和身邊的人快樂。


跌倒了沒關係,爬起來就可以了。人生,也是一樣。




5:38 am. 


鬧鐘響了,這篇文章也應該結束了。花了一整晚的時間把自己心裡話都說出來,我忘了睡覺。算了,既然這樣就去準備上課。新的一天,新的開始。繼續為生活而忙碌,加油,努力!各位早安! ;)


好久沒看見這陽光,有點想念日出。